What Will This New Year Bring???

After an extremely hard semester at school and also to start the New Year off right, I wanted to go to mandir (Hindu temple).  I'm not a religious person, but on occasion I'll get the sudden urge to go to mandir.  This past year has been horrific....what with grueling classes and insane amounts of work and add to that the MS scare I had (which mind you, still is not resolved even though my LP came back negative).  The end of 2010 and all of 2011 has just been one bird shitting on me every single day.  Never felt like I could get ahead of myself.  But I'm hella proud of myself bc even with the MS bs going on, I managed to finish my MA program with a 3.9 GPA.  I wanted to go to mandir, not only to get some blessings for a happier new year, but also to just decompress.  Even though it was crowded and I found myself losing my patience with ppl getting in the way, it was good.  I found myself getting emotional--which is so rare bc I do not cry often--but as I was praying for what I wanted in the New Year, I found myself tearing up.  I just want 2012 to be the best it can be.  I'm so tired of being disappointed with everything.  I want to be happy all the time and not just have happy moments here and there.  Leaving the mandir, I felt a sense of relief.  Like the weight had been lifted off my shoulders.  I have made the resolution to look at things in a positive way from now on....no matter how frustrating or disappointing a situation.  I think 2012 will be a great year.  Here's to wishing, hoping, praying.